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(no subject) [Mar. 15th, 2005|09:11 pm]
I just got back from the gym and i feel great, but not perfect. I always get on that ellipictal trainer *i have no idea how to spell it* and i can't stay on for more then five minutes! whats a great way to get in shape for it? Like time and level i should be doing..or w/e.
I know i've already asked this..but i need all the gym info. I walked for 30 minutes at a 5% incline at 4.0..i burned a little over 200 calories. Then i did a few weights and a 7 minutes bike workout.

i need to burn more!!
stay strong girls
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(no subject) [Aug. 21st, 2004|02:08 pm]
I've fallen..

and i can't get up.

Everything seems to be happening exactly the oppposite of what i want and need. i eat like a lot..and throw it up. but i dont' think i even throw up everything. any tips on how to make sure you throw it all up??

i wish i had ana again.
i need to be strong.

good luck girls!! stay strong.
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(no subject) [Aug. 7th, 2004|11:15 am]
I need the strength.
im so determined.
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(no subject) [Aug. 3rd, 2004|07:09 pm]
Your Total
Dieting subscale
Food preoccupation subscale
Self-control subscale
Your Body-Mass Index (BMI)

i want my BMI lower!! ahh..

today was the wierdest day.
My boyfriend found out about everything.
He wants me to stop..

what am i going to do?

any tips on how to keep it hidden..because i know hes going to be paying a lot more attention towards me.
i dont' want to see a doctor..
i haven't reached any of my goals...

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(no subject) [Jul. 29th, 2004|09:41 am]
I may as well just stop saying ill try a fast, because i never end up succeeding.
whats wrong with me??
how can all of you girls be so strong..but i can't?

i want to give up so bad..
But i have so many dreams..

I want to be thin
i want to be fragile

i can't give up now..
has this ever happened to anyone? where it seemed totally hopeless..

stay strong girls
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(no subject) [Jul. 27th, 2004|12:58 pm]
I can't post body shots quite yet.
but here are some pix of me when i was 130..
and some of them are from when i was 120.


Read more...Collapse )

sorry theres no body shots yet!
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(no subject) [Jul. 26th, 2004|11:10 am]
Bulimia has been taking me over. I eat because i know i can purge it. But i want it to go away. I want to be strong and resist food. If anyone has ever gone through this, and eventually transformed to ana..how did you do it? I used to be ana before this, but then i went to New York with my youth group, and ate a lot..and ever since..
Just some tips or something.
Also..can people under 18 buy laxatives??
stay strong girls!
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(no subject) [Jul. 16th, 2004|11:09 am]
Day one..

yea..we'll see how long this one lasts
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(no subject) [Jun. 29th, 2004|10:10 pm]
Hey..im new to this whole thing. And ive been off and on. But i really just need some help. Im 120lbs..5'5
which is a lot. I want to lose my appetite. i want to not want food. i hate having to force myself not to eat. Any tips? thanks guys. i hope everyone is doing well!!

i have aim ..so if you want to talk just give me your s/n.
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